So sorry for your loss, Joe.
I believe we are spiritual beings in a physical body, so that when we leave our physical bodies behind and cross over, we immediately know and understand everything we questioned, every secret, every misunderstanding from our time in our physical body.
Your Dad knows of your loving surprise. Don't be afraid to ask him for help and guidance in your life. He is still your loving father and always will be there for you. From the darkness will come his answer. Have faith in what the Lord has promised..you will be together again. Listen to your Mom and Dad. They know EVERYTHING.
I will keep you and your family in my daily prayers ..that you gain strength from the love you know surrounds you.
and that you understand why this happened Now...
Laura